I was never flat.
I was full.
For a Chinese girl: I had breasts. Real ones. Heavy. Alive.
I wore them like they belonged. Because they did.
And then I gave them up.
Not all at once.
Not in a moment of choice.
But in a slow bleed of trying to be acceptable.
A man called me fat.
Another called me a beached whale.
They didn’t touch me with cruelty.
They touched me
with opinion,
with judgment,
with expectation.
And I listened.
Because I was raised to give.
To bend. To slim down. To disappear.
