I was in Melbourne.
I was young.
I attended Uni.
I attended him to avoid attending hospital again.
He invaded
without sex,
without asking,
without permission.
He took with brutality,
with my labia cold,
without lubrication.
He hurt me
with my vaginal walls tearing,
with my throat screaming,
with my fingernails slicing my palms.
He impregnated me,
then made me empty my womb.
My body decided: stand guard.
My system learned: be armed.
Hyper-vigilance ran my life.
It scanned.
It locked.
It punished.
It revenged.
It controlled everything.
It robbed me of myself.
He robbed me of me.
Causeway Bay
Years later I was living with the man who would become my husband and father to my daughters.
